Maxine Rose Roxanne's =]

First day of school =.=

2010-01-05T16:11:00.002+08:00

On the first day of school,I already tiok scolded by teacher arh. =.=

Mai cibai!

Not only that,I also tiok black listed in school.

Wanna know why?

Because since Form 1 - Form 3,I always fight with people.

But last year I faught with teachers which is worse.

So,like that lah.

That's why.

And I'm in class 4Science4.

But I wanna go to 4Science3.

There's no Physics subject in my class but there is Accounts.

I HATE Accounts. I'd rather study Physics.

Oh,well...

Hope they'll put me in 4Science3.

If not,I'm so gonna transfer to a different school.

So sai arh my school.

Chao cibai. =.=

New Year! [2010]

2010-01-05T15:55:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 2009,and...

HELLO 2010!!!

It's a new year.

New life.

New start.

Daa...

How I celebrated New Year?

Well,I celebrated it the way I wanted to.

With friends. ^^

I don't have a boyfriend,so it would be great to start a New Year with a kiss from a cute or a hot guy.

And guess what?

That's how my New Year started! ^^

The guy was cute & he's my friend. xD

I celebrated New Year by going clubbing at Travillion.

I had no money but oh well... xD

I wanted to celebrate it at C.O.R.E. but,well like I said,I had no money.

So,I walked around with my friends till countdown.

But then,the cute guy texted me telling me that he was in Check-In.

So,I went there to look for him.

He brought me in with him and he gave me a free bottle of Heineken beer.

During countdown,I was outside Check-In.

When the clock striked 12 midnight,...

THE PLACE WAS CRAZY AND WILD!

People screaming everywhere,couples kissing each other,friends getting drunk and laughing everywhere,and me standing alone outside smiling and taking a deep breath.

After countdown,the cute guy brought me into Check-In.

He pulled me towards him and kissed me on the lips and wished me A Happy New Year.

He hugged me,held my hand,put his arms around my waist,protected me from 'WILD' people,and kissed me. =]

How I celebrated New Year was not how I expected it to be.

It was seriously 'WOW'.

So far,I can say that it was the best New Year celebration I've ever had in my life.

I'm hoping to celebrate a even BETTER one for the upcoming year,2011. ^^

2009 go on 2010

2009-12-29T14:06:00.002+08:00

2009 is gonna be over soon.

I seriously have no idea how to celebrate New Year.

I hope that next year would be a better year for me.

This year [2009] isn't that great. T.T

Love life ~~sucks~~ this year.

Studies were ok i guess.

For me,holiday this year was the BEST.

Why?

Well,because...

I made new friends,went clubbing for the first time,and etc.etc.etc.

P/S : I'm gonna rebond and cut my hair tomorrow. Will upload a picture of it soon. ^^

I love you ♥

2009-12-21T15:50:00.003+08:00

I love you means that I accept you for the person that you are,

and that I do not wish to change you into someone else.

It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times.

It means loving you when you are in a bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do.

It means loving you when you're down,

not just when you're fun to be with.

I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them,

asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine.

It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough to let you go.

It means that I'll be ok when you are with her.

Loving you means standing by you even when you are ripping my heart piece by piece.

PMR results! >.<

2009-12-21T15:42:00.003+08:00

Shit!
PMR results coming out on the 24th December 2009.
During Christmas Eve!

Surely when I get my results,I won't be in the mood to celebrate Christmas.

After I get my results,I wanna go to beach to calm my mind and go clubbing after that. xD

I bet I need a drink when I get my results.

I have no confidence in myself. >.<

I hope I get 5 A's,it'll be good enough for me.

All I can do now is wait for the results.

Sigh...

Taking Back My Love

2009-12-16T10:46:00.003+08:00

RULES

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, Realplayer, etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button for your answer.
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW SILLY it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. For best results, put in various songs from various singers at least 50 songs.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay? ... you say?
Onew & Jessica - One Year Later. [LOL. xD]

2. How could you describe yourself?
Pixie Lott - Cry Me Out [Haha! I don't get it. xD]

3. What do you like in a girl/boy?
Avenged Sevenfold - Chapter Four [I wonder what is in their chapter four. xD]

4. How do you feel today?
Mariah Carey - I Stay In Love [Waa... Stay in love with who o? O.O]

5. What if your life's purpose?
Pussycat Dolls - Hush Hush [As in to keep quiet? Haha!]

6. What is your motto?
Silverchair - Without You [Without who? O.o]

7. What do your friends think of you?
David Arhculeta - Touch My Hand [Haha! No comment. xD]

8. What do you think of your parents?
Avenged Sevenfold - Warmness On The Soul [ Wow. That's kindda sweet. In a way.]

9. What do you think about very often?
Wang Lee Hom - Kiss Goodbye [Waa... O.O Who kissed me goodbye o?]

10. What is 2 + 2?
One Missed Call ringtone [Oh My Gosh! O.O]

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Baek Ji Young - Don't Forget [Yeah. Please don't forget me. ^^]

12. What do you think of the person you like?
2PM - Heartbeat [Waa... Cool. ^^ Hehe.]

13. What is your life story?
Yuni Shara - Sepi [ Woah! Quite true o. T.T]

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Tamia - Officially Missing You [Doesn't make sense. xD]

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Paramore - Decode [Waa... Thinking of how to decode their mind to like me. LOL. xD]

16. What will you dance at your wedding?
Girls Generation - Gee [LOL. LMAO. ROTFL. Haha! So cool. xD Everybody will do the dance with me.]

17. What is your hobby/interest?
Jason Mraz - Lucky [Lucky for what o? O.o]

18. What is your biggest fear?
Cascada - Evacuate The Dance Floor [Haha! What's so fear-ish about that? xD]

19. What is your biggest secret?
Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me [ Umm... Haha!]

20. What do you think of your friends?
SS501 - Love Like This [Eee... So cun. Hehe. ^^]

21. What will you post this as?
Enrique Iglesias - Taking Back My Love [Huh? O.o]

Holidayism xD

2009-12-16T10:36:00.002+08:00

Holidays are quite boring.

Sigh...

Can't wait for the PMR results to come out and get it over with.

Suspens arh. >.<

Made quite a lot of friends during this holiday. ^^

Never really made any friends during the holidays.

For now,this year's holiday is the best.

Going out with friends,doing illegal things & more.

Good girl gone bad.

Woot!~ xP

Nothing so illegal lah.

I didn't take drugs or became a prostitute or anything that illegal.

I feel like transfering school.

But no idea which school to transfer to.

Hmm...

Or maybe I should transfer to KL,Melaka,Sabah or somewhere.

Heh. >.<

Well,that's all for now.

And my computer is currently spoiled & I'm using my brother's notebook.

NOOBness xD

2009-12-13T15:11:00.002+08:00

I'm still such a noob at using Tumblr.

Haha! xD

I feel so...lame. >.<

Hope one day I'll get the hang of it.

That's all.

Lalalalala... =P

Dedicated to Hazelin Ng =]

2009-12-11T12:46:00.002+08:00

HAZELIN NG

I would love to wish my best friend,Hazelin Ng,a very happy birthday. =]

You're 15 years old liaw o.

You may be a year older,but you will always be young at heart. ^^

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to Hazelin,

Happy Birthday to you! =D

Happy birthday to you,

You live in a zoo,

You look like a monkey,

And you smell like one too.

Haha! xD

Happy birthday,birthday girl!

*hugs*

God bless you always.

Have a blessed birthday.

Amen.

Love you lots. ♥

Nothing more T.T

2009-12-09T17:20:00.005+08:00

Yes,we're best friends.

And yes,I am falling for him.

Last night I confessed my feelings to him.

And he said this,"I really can't."

Until now I've been wondering what he meant by that.

Well,sometimes things are better left unknown.

I knew that there was no use if I told him.

I knew that nothing good was gonna happen.

But he kept on asking me to tell him.

My sis even asked me to tell him.

Kindda regret telling him.

Now I'm gonna feel kindda uncomfortable around him.

Sigh...

So now all we are,are just best friends.

Nothing more.

Never ever gonna be anything more. T.T

Well,this isn't my year to be falling in love.

Hopefully next year will be a better year.

This year is only my year to have fun,despite sitting for PMR. xD

It rained heavily in my room last night. [If you know what I mean]

I've been listening to sad songs since last night.

Nothing to be happy about.

Sucks to be me. >.<

Oh well,since Korea hope that I'll be happy everyday,let's see what happens. xD

I hope I have something interesting to post tomorrow.

And I hope I can.

I'm currently having a really bad sore throat right now.

My voice sounds so funny.

I sound like a duck.

Oh!

Last night,when a friend of mine called me,I nearly got an heart attack.

Wanna know why?

Because I was listening to music using my earphones.

And then he called.

The scary part was,not only the ringtone was loud,but it was the ringtone from the movie One Missed Call.

I forgot that I put that as my ringtone.

Haha! xD

L I F E

2009-12-09T11:20:00.002+08:00

Life is about having fun.

Don't be stupid and waste it on someone who is gonna act like they're gonna hate you tomorrow.

Never waste it on someone who doesn't want their friends to know that they're in love with you.

Don't give that person the rest of your tears or months or years of your life when they treat you badly and doesn't mind making you cry.

Every person deserves someone who brags about them.

Don't fool yourself.

You deserve so much better than that.

Save yourself >.<

2009-12-09T11:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,you just have to stop caring.

You have to turn off all your emotions and feelings to protect yourself from getting hurt.

You have to stop caring about what other people think of you and be yourself.

Sometimes you have to hide it all not let anyone know how you feel or what you think.

You have to put a smile on your face and pretend that everything is fine even when it's not.

Sometimes that's the only way to save yourself from a broken heart.

I already know!

2009-12-09T11:00:00.002+08:00

I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything?

I'm stupid because sometimes I'm wrong?

I'm ugly because my face isn't perfect?

I'm a pushover because I like making people happy?

I'm a loser because I'm not friends with your group?

I'm fake because I'm too nice?

I'm weird because I'm not like you?

I'm fat because I eat when I'm hungry?

I'm clingy because I don't like to be alone?

I'm insecure because I care about what people think of me?

I'm no fun because I'm not always hyper?

DO NOT try to tell me who I am

BECAUSE

I already know!

┌П┐(>_<)┌П┐

2009-12-03T15:21:00.001+08:00

Haha! Cool title isn't it? xD

Yeah. That's all I wanna post about it.

Lalalalala... =P

TaeMaxine =P

2009-12-03T14:46:00.003+08:00

I've been obsessing about Taemin.

He's my husband. xD

How I wish. Haha!

He's so adorable and cute.

He's utter cuteness.

I wanna squeeze him.

He's just so so so adorable!

Oh my gosh! >.<

Why don't they come to Kuching and held a concert.

I would so totally go.

I also wanna get VIP passes and backstage passes.

Then I can sit with Taemin and stare at him whole day long.

Then I can also ask him to play the piano and sing to me.

I would be in dream land if that happens. xD

Taemin,Taemin,Taemin! =D

I love his hair.

I love his smile.

I love his voice.

I love the way he dance.

I love the way he plays the piano.

I love EVERYTHING about him!

I have 3 friends who are Taemin look-a-like[s].

Hehe. ^^

They're hot-stuffs too. xD

But they're all taken. Darn! =.=

I have up to 200 pictures of Taemin & SHINee in my phone.

But I have more than that in my folder in the computer.

Haha! xD

I wanna go to Korea and look for him.

And maybe kidnap him.

Haha! No lah.

Just kidding.

But I really wanna go to Korea and look for him.

My last wish before I die is go to Korea and meet him.

Huhu. ;[

I hope that dream would come true. [Without me dying]

Never in my life I've been obsesses over someone like this. >.<

He's so...WOW.

Words cannot describe him.

He's the greatest Maknae ever. ^^

I wanna marry him. xD

Emptiness >.<

2009-12-02T21:54:00.003+08:00

I feel something inside of me missing.

I feel kindda empty.

I donno what it is.

How I wish I knew.

So that I could fix it.

Well,sometimes life isn't fair.

God didn't say that life would be easy,He only said that it would be worth it.

The way from God to a human heart is through a human heart.

I'll try blogging about something better tomorrow.

Goodnight.

God bless you. =]

It wasn't an easy thing to do T.T

2009-12-01T11:27:00.003+08:00

I hope what I did was the right thing to do.

Well,even though I take it all back,nothing's gonna change.

You've found someone new.

I guess this is the way it was suppose to be.

Even then,I want you to be happy and live a happy life.

I'm doing this for you.

Even though it hurts a lot,but I don't want to see you getting hurt anymore because of me.

I hope you understand why I'm doing this.

Because if we stayed as best friends,people won't stop talking.

And I know it hurts you.

And I don't wanna see you getting hurt anymore.

That's why I have to let you go.

It hurts me more than it hurts you.

Honestly,I feel hurt and jealous because you've found someone new.

And it took you such a short period of time.

Within 3-5 days and you've already found a new one.

WOW!

Sigh...

Oh well,I'm happy for you.

As long as you're happy,then I'm happy.

It seriously wasn't an easy thing to do.

Losing you was like losing a part of myself.

I feel empty.

A part of me is missing.

Never in my life have I felt like this over losing a best friend.

Well,I guess now it's too late.

God bless you and your new bestfriend.

Take care. =]

Update[s] ^^

2009-12-01T11:23:00.002+08:00

Update about what has happened lately

1. I lost my best friend.

2. Got lots of mosquito bites and sand fly bites.

3. Injured my legs.

4. Into Korean songs.

5. Obessesing over Taemin & SHINee.

I think that's all. xD

Lazyness

2009-12-01T11:19:00.002+08:00

Angh! ^^

I haven't been updating for a long time.

Been busy Taemin-ing.

LOL xD

On the 26th - 29th November,I attended Camp Empowered.

It was held at Camp Putra Sentosa,Sematan.

It was a great experience.

I had lots of fun despite the mosquito bites. Haha!

Well,kindda lazy to write about it.

Maybe I will write about it one day.

When I'm hard working enough. xD

TAEMIN OBSESSION!!! xD

2009-11-23T09:40:00.002+08:00

TAEMIN (TaiMin)

Birthday : 1993.07.18

Height : 175 cm

Interest / Specialty : POPPIN dance,listening to music,piano & speaks chinese

Stage name : Taemin

Birth name : Lee Taemin

Position : Rapper,Sub vocal & Lead dancer

TAEMIN fever

2009-11-18T15:27:00.003+08:00

I'm currently SICK.

Not so sick lah.

Just sick.

This whole week has been so boring for me.

Not going out. No money.

No money,no talk. >.<

I only have RM 5 left with me.

So sad. T.T

All I've been doing is going online,Facebook-ing,listening to music,texting people and most of all...

Watching Shinee - Ring Ding Dong video over and over again.

Can't get enough of it.

My husband is in it.

TAEMIN!

Taemin is HOT-STUFF.

For me lah.

Haha! xD

I'm obssesed with Taemin my love.

NOTHING

2009-11-17T16:40:00.005+08:00

I've got nothing interesting to blog about actually.

Well,I do but I don't want to blog it out.

My holidays has been fun lately.

Especially on weekends.

Oh! And about that Ah Boy guy.

SCREW HIM!

There's this korean boy band named Shinee.

And one of them looks EXACTLY like Ah Boy.

Here's the picture.

SECOND LEFT ^^

Cute,right? ^^ Hehe.
That guy is 16 and Ah Boy is 15.
He seriously looks exactly like Ah Boy.
It's like it's his twin brother.
Ooolala... xD
YUMMY

PS : Ah Boy's real name is Cornelius. ^-^

TO HIM!

2009-11-09T11:12:00.005+08:00

Mai cibai!

Wanna play with me arh?

I'm not some CHEAP BITCH that you meet in the club,ok?

I'm not someone you can mess around with!

I was sick but I still went to celebrate your birthday with you.

I did it for you!

I gave you a ring and you threw it away just like that?!

FUCK YOU,MAN!

So what if you're good looking at all?

So what if your kor kor is a pai kia?

He's my kor kor also.

Even though you're his didi,but if you do things like this,he's on my side.

You're such a bloody heartless person.

Cibai kia lah you,asshole!

You said you loved me.

I bet it was all a lie!

What am I to you?

A toy?!

Haha! Very funny.

If I ever see you,I'm gonna give you a big hard slap in the face!

Think I'm scared of you?

No way!

Go die lah you!

You disgust me!

Just do me a favour.

Go die,would you?

ROT IN HELL!

You're such a playboy.

Chao cibai lah you!

Mother fucking asshole!

Dedicated to HIM!

2009-11-09T11:04:00.002+08:00

I DON'T CARE

Hey playboy

It's about time

And your times up

I had to do this one for my girl you know

That's the only way you boys learn

I can't ever forgive you for that lipstick on your collar

Every day,your phone's always off

It doesn't seem like you're going to change

All those girlfriends you call "friends"

Don't think of me in the same way as them,

I won't let it flyFrom now on, do as you want,

I'm going to stop caring

For some time I really loved you but oh

Sometimes you get drunk,and call me,now it's 5:30 am

Again you say another girl's name no

I don't care,

I'll stop caring about what you're doing wherever you are

From now on I really don't care, I'll get out of the way

From now on don't come to me and cry, and cling on cause

I don't care

Cause I don't care

I don't care

Boy I don't care

Stealing glances at other girl's legs

You're so so hopeless

Everyday you take off your couple ring,and secretly go on a blind date

I don't think that I'll be able to take it anymore

My friends say that you're not really worth it

You even went to your wolf-like friends for advice but

I'd rather keep it simple,I'm too good for you

I believed you were my love but oh

Today you said you were busy, I tried phoning you but

As expected, in the background I heard a girl's laugh oh no

Because of you, I remember crying till dawn boy

I regret every time I think about you when my heart was too easy, huh boy?

I'm too good to throw away and too boring to have

You should've treated me better when we were together why are you clinging to me now

You fooled me with your lies hundreds of times

From today on, I'll be a bad girl who makes guys cry

Now without a single tear, I'll laugh at you

Loser who's inside a game called love

Get on your knees and take me back

If not, get out of my sight right now

Party at CORE! =D

2009-11-09T10:16:00.004+08:00

ME,HAZELIN AND DIINSON

On 7th November 2009,Saturday.

Me,Diana,Hazelin,Diinson,Brandon and Aaron went to Core to celebrate Ah Boy's birthday.
We were there from 10.30pm to 2.30am.

I had so much fun with Ah Boy. ^^
We drank A LOT.
We were so drunk.We drank non-stop and we danced.

The DJ wished Ah Boy happy birthday and played a happy birthday song.
We danced and sang and had lots of fun.
Got sapu at Core around 2 something.
So,we left. We went to some coffee shop.
Then we went to The Office.
Then we went home after that.

I don't really remember what happened that night.
I was so drunk. xD
First time I go clubbing.

It was the BEST NIGHT in my life!

WOOHOO!~

ME AND AH BOY

Sleepover At Diana's Place =]

2009-10-28T20:59:00.008+08:00

US THREE [3]

On 23rd October 2009,I slept over at my beloved sister's place.
Her name is Diana Ting. =]

Hazelin and I slept over at her place.

I arrived at Diana's place first.

But Hazelin wasn't there yet.

So,Diana and I went to Jalan Song for dinner.

Once we were done eating,Hazelin asked Patrick to pick us up to go to Bing!

It's my first time meeting Patrick in person.

We hanged out at Bing! for a while.

We had to get back at Diana's place by 9.30pm.

But we ended up reaching there around 10pm.

ME AT BING!

Once we arrive at Diana's place,we went to her room to relax for a while.

After that both Hazelin and Diana played pillow fight.

I video recorded them pillow fighting.

It's really funny. xD

After a while,they were exausted.

So,we went up to the 3rd floor to watch movie.

HAZELIN HITTING DIANA WITH A HEART SHAPED PILLOW

Instead of sleeping in her room,we slept on the 3rd floor.

I have to idea what's that room called.

But they've got huge TV,Mahjong table,Snooker table and a bar in there.

I only slept for 2 hours.

From 7am - 9am.

We watched One Missed Call.

The final one.

It was so freaking scary! >.<

But kindda funny.

We watched it from around 12am - 2am.

US WITH OUR SOFT TOYS

After that,we played snooker! ^^

We all played.

Then pass 4am,Diana went to sleep.

But Hazelin and I cotinued playing till 6am.

HAZELIN

ME

At 6am,we went out on the roof to watch the sunrise.

OH.MY.GOSH!

The view is just so beautiful!

I've never seen such view in Kuching before.

And it was my frist time being on a roof.

Hazelin and I took some pictures.

Diana was still sleeping.

ME AND MY TEDDY ON THE ROOF

MY TEDDY BEING VAIN

Around 7am,we went back in.

Hazelin and I lay under the snooker table.

I planned on not sleeping.

But I ended up sleeping while halfway talking to Hazelin.

Haha! xD

ME SLEEPING UNDER THE SNOOKER TABLE

I woke up 2 hours later.

When I woke up,I saw Diana watching PS : I Love You.

And Hazelin too was already awake.

I joined them watching that movie.

Once that movie was over,we watched another movie.

We watched Angus,Thongs And Perfect Snoggings. =D

I've always wanted to watch that movie.

After we finished watching movies.

I went and shower,but Hazelin didn't,then went back home.

PS : Diana made a new nick name for Hazelin.

It's HAZERING ENG. xD

To view all the picture during the sleepover and to watch the pillow fightin video.

Do not hesitate to add me in Facebook.

Thank you. =]

What's our purpose in life?

2009-10-23T11:31:00.003+08:00

LIVE YOUR LIFE

I know there are people out there who wants to know what's their purpose in life?

Some of us may think that there's no point for us being in this world.

For so long I prayed to God,asking him to tell me what's my purpose in life.

I kept on thinking that I'm useless in this world.

Well,yesterday,somehow God must have answered my prayer.

While I was sitting in the car,waiting for my dad to buy some stuff in the grocery store,

I sat down quietly and then suddenly,I somehow knew what my purpose in life is.

God created me in this world to help people and to be there for them.

God created every one of us for a purpose.

He created each and every one of us is our unique ways.

If you think that you have no purpose in this world,think again.

Or better,pray and ask God to help you.

We can't always do things ourselves.

Sometimes we need help.

21.10.09. Hangout ^^

2009-10-22T14:01:00.006+08:00

Yesterday,Diana asked me to accompany her studying at Sarawak Club.

So,I asked Hazelin to tag along.

When we were at Sarawak Club,Diana didn't even study.

She kept on eating,drinking and especially TALKING.

That crazy girl. xD

After that,Diana asked her friend to send us back to her place so that she could shower.

After she showered,she asked her friend to send us to The Spring.

We took some pictures in the car.

IN THE CAR

At The Spring,we walked around and bought some clothes.
Then,Hazelin noticed that Diana's ear piercing was bleeding.
So,we had to go to the toilet and clean it for her.
Well,only Hazelin did the cleaning. Haha!

HAZELIN CLEANING DIANA'S EAR PIERCING

After Hazelin was done cleaning Diana's ear,Diana and I knocked on the toilet cubicle door with people in it and we quickly ran out.
Then we went to Igloo.
I was the only one who ordered something from there.
Both of them bought something from somewhere else.

HAZELIN EATING. DIANA DRINKING.

After that,Diana called someone to pick us up from The Spring to send us to Jalan Song.
We went to Jalan Song because we wanted to eat.
In the end,we didn't eat.
We ended up drinking and taking pictures.

WE DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO

BEING VAIN AT EXPERT COFFEE SHOP

After that,we walked back to Diana's place.
While walking,we were telling scary stories.
Once we reached her place,we continue talking about scary stories.
Then I wanted to shower,but I didn't dare.
Because of all the stories I've heard.
So,Diana suggested to shower together.
But the moment I entered the bathroom,I wasn't afraid to shower alone anymore.

After that,we all went to the computer room because Diana wanted to upload pictures.
Then hours passed and I had to go home.

IN THE COMPUTER ROOM

THE END xD

Boredom

2009-10-20T14:38:00.003+08:00

I thought that after PMR would be fun,

but then it isn't.

You're only free from studies.

The school has this after PMR program which is so boring.

But on 6th November there will be a field trip for the Form 3's.

But sadly,I can't go.

I have another surgery on that day.

Sigh...

I'm so bored at home.

All I can do is online.

I wanna go out with friends.

Oh well,atleast I have 3 months holiday instead of 1 month. xD

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone lyrics

2009-10-20T12:02:00.003+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die.

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop.

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye.

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone.

THIS SONG IS SO SAD

I'm so happy! ;]

2009-10-19T10:43:00.003+08:00

Yesterday,after 3 months and 17 days,HE finally talked to me.

I'm so happy.

You don't know how happy I am.

Now,I can live my live happily and peacefully. =]

When HE started talking to me again,it feels like I'm living a new life.

A new fresh start.

I wanna thank HIM for being my friend again.

WOOHOO!~

PMR is over! =D

2009-10-19T09:57:00.003+08:00

PMR was held on 7th - 13th October.

It was one hell of a week!

I felt like my brain was gonna explode. >.<

Science paper 2 was really hard for me.

The rest was ok. =]

After PMR,my school has this PASCA PMR PROGRAM which is so damn boring.

I'm not going to school anymore since the programs are so boring.

No point going either.

Such a waste of time.

I don't have that many plans after PMR.

Kindda boring tho. =.=

All I can do is online or watch TV.

That's all. =]

Konsert Syukur 2009

2009-10-18T13:09:00.003+08:00

On the 16th - 17th October,Konsert Syukur was held at the old Dewan Undangan Negeri [DUN] at Kuching.

ORPES [Orchestra Pelajaran Sarawak] performed for the concert.

In the orchestra,consists of students and teachers from SMK St.Teresa,SMK Green Road,SMK St. Joseph,IMH and other schools.

Practices were boring.

But the long 3 hours breaks in the afternoon and evening were really fun. =]

I made new friends from SMK Green Road.

Namely Joey Kho,Michelle Chai,Chin Ying Sin and Stanton.

There were other friends there too.

On Friday night,the second last night,during the 2 and half hour break,we sneaked up to the third floors.

We're not allowed to go there.

But we were so bored.

All the Greenians,Josephian and I'm the only Tresian that went up.

The first time I went up with them,I was kindda afraid that we might get caught.

So,as we went up,we were walking around.

Then one of them opened one door.

And in that door,there were more stairs.

When they all went in,I was looking out at the door,then I saw a security walking towards us.

So,I left them and quickly ran back down alone using the dark stairway.

It was so scary running down the dark stairway alone. O.O

Then Joey texted me asking me where was I.

So I told him,then they all came down and looked for me.

Then they asked me why I ran away.

So I told them,but then they said that there was no security guard anywhere.

The next night,we went up to the third floor again.

This time,I don't care about whoever or whatever.

I'm gonna follow them till the end,since it's the last night.

They went to the same door,the one which has more stairs going up.

We went up the stairs.

When we reached the tp,there was another door.

One of my friend opened the door and...

WOW!

The view is so...beautiful!

We were on the roof.

It has such a beautiful view of Kuching from up there.

After that,we went back down and explore more of there place.

We were walking,after that Amanda said that there's a security ahead of us.

So,we all quickly turned and ran.

We all bumped into each other really hard as we tried to run.

Waie knocked me really hard and it hurted a lot. >.<

After that,I looked down and then the security guard saw me.

He asked us to go back down.

Then we all of us ran somewhere.

After that,we walked around again and then,there was a door ahead of us.

On the other side of the door,was the security guard.

So,we ran back down as fast as we could.

But five of us couldn't manage to run.

Two of them got caught but the other three managed to hide somehwere.

After that that excitement of being rebellious teens,we went back down and went ahead with out performance.

We all laughed at what had happened.

On the second last day,my friends and I ordered pizza. =D

Well,A LOT happened.

But I'm just kindda lazy wanna type it all out.

I only wrote the best parts.

I will upload the pictures soon. =]

2009-10-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

HEYS! =]

I haven't been updating for a very long time.

I will update soon.

No worries. ^^

I have lots to write,so there will be lots to read.

I won't write all at once.

I'll write one by one.

LOL xD

Ok,then.

That's all!

Over exaggeration xS

2009-09-11T16:03:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we tend to over exaggerate.

We need to know when to stop.

We need to control ourselves.

I did this[over exaggerate] to one of my bestfriend without even noticing it.

Someone had to tell me to notice it.

And,yeah... I noticed it.

I feel so bad.

So,of course I'm not gonna do it again.

I'm gonna change that "problem" about me. Heh. >.<

One of my bestfriend over exaggerates.

But I don't tell her that,of course.

I just don't bother to.

I just let her be.

Because even if I tell her,she won't listen.

But now,she's not really my bestfriend anymore.

She joined this new "gang" in class.

And that gang so teruk. >.<

Biar her lah.

Malas wanna tegur about her already.

Brapa lama I help her,advice her and all already.

But she never show her appreciation.

So,whatever lah!

I just wanna concentrate on PMR right now.

No time for these kind of problems.

To everyone:

I wanna say that I'm truly sorry if I over exaggerate at times. Sorry if didn't notice it. Please forgive me. I didn't mean to do it on purpose. Kan sometimes people tidak sedar diri,right? Yeah... So, I'm so very truly am sorry. I hope that you'll forgive.

I want a Macbook!

2009-09-10T21:13:00.003+08:00

MACBOOK =]

I want a Macbook so badly!

I've been obsessing about it lately.

Oh my gosh!

I want one!

But it's so damn expensive.

It costs RM 3,669.

If I get that Macbook,you won't be seeing me leaving the house.

I'll be at home,in my room,stuck to it.

LOL xD

No lah.

Let's be realistic here.

If I get that Macbook,I'll be so damn happy!

I'd rather get that Macbook instead of a new phone.

Well,duh...!

Haha! =D

Well,hopefully I can get it by this year.

Hopefully when the long holiday starts.

Hehe.

I DESPERATELY WANT A MACBOOK

Imperfections N' Perfections

2009-09-10T17:22:00.003+08:00

LIVE FOR HIM

I don't understand why there are some certain people who wants us to be perfect when they themselves aren't perfect.

Who do they think they are?

If they're not perfect,then why do they want us to be perfect?

Nobody's perfect.

God made everyone of us uniquely imperfect.

And I thank God for that.

There are some certain people who can't accept other people's imperfections.

What? They think they're so perfect ka?

I'm sure they also have imperfections.

Geez...

Why look at a person's imperfections when you can look at their perfections?

Why do we think negatively about someone instead of positively?

Why do we also bad at the good things instead of the good things?

Why are we so judmental?

Why are we so heartless?

Why are we so critical?

WHY? WHY? WHY?!

DAMN LAH!

WE'RE NOT PERFECT,OK?!

SO STOP WANTING PERFECTION!

NOBODY'S PERFECT!

I HAVE IMPERFECTIONS!

AND I'M PROUD OF IT!

GOD MADE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE!

HE MADE YOU DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS.

ACCEPT IT!

APPRECIATE IT!

THANK GOD THAT YOU LIVE!

THANK GOD THAT HE MADE YOU!

HE DIED FOR YOU.

WHY NOT LIVE FOR HIM?!

Demi Lovato - Here We Go Again [Lyrics]

2009-09-10T17:00:00.005+08:00

PLEASE DON'T BREAK IT

I throw all of your stuff away

I’m gonna clear you out of my head

I tear you out of my heart

And ignore all your messages

I tell everyone we are through

'Cause I'm so much better without you

But it’s just another pretty lie

'Cause I break down

Every time you come around

So how did you get here under my skin?

I swore that I'd never let you back in

Should have known better in trying to let you go

'Cause here we go go go again

Hard as I try I know I can't quit

Something about youis so addictive

We're falling togetheryou'd think that by now I'd know

Cause here we go go go again

You never know what you want

And you never say what you mean

But I start to go insane

Every time that you look at me

You only hear half of what I say

And you're always showing up too late

And I know that I should say goodbye

But it's no use

Can't be with or without you

So how did you get hereunder my skin?

I swore that I'd never let you back in

Should have known better in trying to let you

Cause here we go go go again

Hard as I try I know I can't quit

Something about you is so addictive

We're falling together you’d think that by now I'd know

Cause here we go go go again

I threw all of your stuff away

And I cleared you out of my head

And I tore you out of my heart

So how did you get here under my skin?

I swore that I'd never let you back in

Should have known better in trying to let you go

Cause here we go go go again

Hard as I try I know I can't quit

Something about you is so addictive

We're falling together you'd think that by now I'd know

Cause here we go go here we go again

Here we go again

Should have known better in trying to let you go

'Cause here we go go go again

THE PAIN IS EXCRUTIATING

GOD. JESUS. LORD. SAVIOUR. FATHER. FRIEND.

2009-09-10T14:31:00.004+08:00

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

Miracles are not because of the difficulties.

But a MIRACLE is because of the IMPOSSIBILITY.

God is more than able to fix what He made.

He can mend your broken life with the great efforts that you do upon yourself.

He multiply your deeds,He will bless your needs.

Because when I prayed for strength,I got pain that made me strong.

I prayed for courage and I've got fear to overcome.

I prayed for faith and my empty heart brought me to my knees.

I don't always get what I want,but I always get what I need.

He is afterall the BIGGEST,GREATEST,LARGEST yet the GENTLEST,HUMBLEST and LOVELIEST person ever.

He only wants the BEST for us.

To give you wealth and inheritance for His Kingdom of Heaven.

And it's all because he loves you.

WE DON'T ALWAYS GET WHAT WE WANT,

BUT WE ALWAYS GET WHAT WE NEED.

Sadness =(

2009-09-10T14:24:00.002+08:00

Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend.

There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you.

I know you don't believe that you mean so much to me,but you do.

If you could find it in your heart to give me a chance,I would really appreciate it.

Sometimes it's worth taking the risk.

The TRUTH ;[

2009-09-10T14:02:00.005+08:00

FRIENDSHIP IS FOREVER

Damn it!

I didn't believe it when he said that he likes me.

So,I asked him to tell me the truth.

So,he did.

He said this :

"Bie... I'm sorry but I don't love you. I just wanna be your friend. I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier. I just don't wanna hurt your feelings but I did. I'm really sorry! So can we just be friends? I just love/like you as a friend only. Because friendship lasts longer than relationship. Can we just be best friends?"

When I read that,I was like... O.O

Gosh!

Luckily I wasn't in love with him.

Luckily I only liked him.

Imagine me in love with him,I'm sure I'll go all LUNATIC! >.<

But,I'm ok I guess.

PMR is just around the corner.

I don't wanna go all crazy about this love thing now.

If he just wanna be friends,it's ok.

Atleast he told me the truth.

If he didn't tell me,...DIE ARH!

So,now he and I are just bestfriends and nothing more.

Like he said,friendship lasts longer than relationships.

That is true for youngsters like us.

FRIENDSHIPS LASTS LONGER THAN RELATIONSHIPS

Sarcastic love poem ^-^

2009-09-09T16:10:00.005+08:00

My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife:

Marrying you screwed up my life.

I see your face when I am dreaming.

That's why I always wake up screaming.

Kind, intelligent, loving and hot;

This describes everything you are not.

Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss,

But I only slept with you because I was pissed.

I thought that I could love no other --

that is until I met your brother.

Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you.

But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl'sempty and so is your head.

I want to feel your sweet embrace;

But don't take that paper bag off your face.

I love your smile, your face, and your eyes --

Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

My love, you take my breath away.

What have you stepped in to smell this way?

My feelings for you no words can tell,

Except for maybe 'Go to hell'.

What inspired this amorous rhyme?

Two parts tequila, one part lime.

YOU ARE MY SUN.YOU BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY.

1 week ^-^

2009-09-08T21:50:00.005+08:00

Just now before tuition,me and Gideon go NK and drink.

We sat down,drink and chit chat.

He spon me. [Thank you,Gideon!]

And then Xandria [my bestfriend] came and join us.

I wanted to eat,but then I was shy also. [LOL xD]

So,we drank only.

We chit chat about stuffs.

First time I drink with Gideon.

I went up to class late. Heh. >.<

When I went up to class,teacher gave out exercises on 'Construction'.

I didn't bring my compass and all those.

So,I texted Gideon to borrow his one.

So,we went down and he passed it to me.

We're not in the same class. That's why.

[Thank you for lending it to me.]

I always talk during tuition.

I don't really pay full attention. Haha!

TODAY IS APPROXIMATELY 1 WEEK I'VE KNOW HIM ^-^

No rush

2009-09-08T15:46:00.004+08:00

I hope you'll tell me the truth about how you feel towards me.

You said that you like me,but I don't really believe it.

If you really do like me,then you will convince me.

I'm in no rush. I can wait.

I'm only liking you but not loving you yet.

It's just a like feeling.

It's not love.

So,we don't have to go all crazy over it.

I'm not desperate.

I hope that one day you'll express your true feelings towards me.

Though you're not that type of guy.

But I hope that you will.

One thing's for sure is that I'm over LEON.

MORE THAN WORDS TO SHOW ME HOW YOU FEEL.

Healing AND Inner Healing

2009-09-08T14:57:00.005+08:00

BE FREE. SET IT FREE.

James 5:13-16

"Are any among you in trouble? They should pray. Are any among you happy? They should sing praises. Are any among you sick? They should send for the church elders, who will pray for them and rub olive oil on them in the name of the Lord. This prayer made in faith will heal the sick; the Lord will restore them to health, and the sins they have commited will be forgiven. So then, confess your sins to one another, so that you will be healed. The prayer of a good person has a powerful effect."

During a bible sharing last night after Empowered music ministry practice,

Nathaneil Russel was leading the bible sharing.

His bible sharing was about HEALING and INNER HEALING.

I don't really know how to explain this,but I'll try my very best.

I'm going to concentrate more about INNER HEALING.

Inner healing is almost the same as a normal healing.

It's just that inner healing is for the pain and wounds inside you.

And healing is for wounds such as a cut on your hand or something like that.

INNER HEALING

The pain that someone has caused you,you have to let it heal.

You must not hold it in your heart.

You MUST let it heal.

Just like any other wounds,if you don't let it heal,it will rot/corrupt.

Same like the wound inside you.

If you don't let it heal,it will rot/corrupt.

If you want the pain inside you to be no more,then it's best if you go for inner healing.

Not necessarily you have to for counselling and all that.

You can do it on your own.

Just spend some time alone thinking about the pain that you could never let go.

Maybe the pain is caused by what someone has done to you or something else.

It's about forgiving that person for whatever they have done to you.

And it's also about forgetting what they have done.

It's about forgiving and forgetting.

Don't keep it inside you,let it all out.

You have to let it heal.

You can even share it with someone whom you trust.

You can even ask advice or help from people.

Just,DO NOT keep it all inside.

You have to let it go.

HAZE?! >.<

2009-09-08T14:44:00.003+08:00

Damn lah!

Why is the haze back?

Now so damn hazy again.

Sigh...

Rain also no use. =.=

People lah!

Do open burning,smoke and bla bla bla.

Don't they know what is GLOBAL WARMING?!

Geez...

So pissed off lah.

Wanna study also cannot concentrate.

Because it's so hot because of the haze!

So babi one.

Reality Check!

2009-09-07T16:01:00.006+08:00

Surprisingly when I met HIM,I've gotten over you.

Don't get it mixed up.

I've gotten over you but I haven't forgotten about you.

I don't know why you have to be so cruel to me.

Just ignoring me like that.

Treating me like a stranger.

What wrong have I ever done to you?

I can't and I don't think I can ever understand you.

It's so hard to know what you're thinking.

It's so hard to understand you.

If only you would tell me the reason why you're doing this to me,

then maybe I could be free from this prison I'm trapped in.

It's not wrong being friends with your ex's.

You don't wanna talk to me.

You don't even wanna LOOK at me!

Why do you have to be so mean?

You're so mean,you know that?!

Why are you being so heartless?!

I guess that's who you are and that's who you ever will be.

If only you knew that your actions really hurt others.

But,you will never know that.

You're still in your DREAM LAND.

You're still in YOUR OWN WORLD.

When will you ever wake up and notice that this is REALITY?!

It's time for me to move on.

I've found someone who might be THE ONE.

IGNORANCE IS BLISS!

PARANOID!!!

2009-09-07T15:30:00.005+08:00

I'm not sure whether you're being serious with me or not.

When you told me that you like me,it's just so hard to believe.

If you were just kidding,please tell me.

If you mean it,then prove it to me.

I'm afraid of getting hurt again.

That's why I'm taking extra precautions now a days when it comes to love.

What happened to me last time,made me so paranoid.

Please don't fool around.

Love isn't a game. It's a serious thing.

I hope that you will tell me the truth.

I still don't really truly believe it when you said that you like me.

If you really do like me,then you will try and convince me.

I'm not that desperate,so I can wait.

I'll be calm and patient.

But please just tell me the truth and not hurt me.

I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.

The Saturday - Issues [Lyrics]

2009-09-07T15:01:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
Boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
But then you smile at me and it's alright,
With you,there ain't no in between.
Everytime that I walk out the door,

I tell myself I can't take it no more.
Theres a part of me won't let you go,

I keep saying yes when my mind's saying no.

Me and my heart we got issues,

Don't know if I should hate you or miss you,

Damn I wish that I could resist you,

Can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you,

Me and my heart we got issues,issues,issues,

We got issues issues issues.

Its awful,boy you leave me hangin for so long.

You empty out my love until it's all gone.

You change the words but still it's the same song.

Im tired of the melody.

Change my number and throw out your clothes,

But my feelings for you,they still show,

I keep building the walls round my heart,

But then I see you it all falls apart.

Me and my heart we got issues,

Don't know if i should hate you or miss you,

Damn,I wish that I could resist you,

Can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you,

Me and my heart we got issues,issues,issues,

We got issues issues issues.

Wanna fight it,can't hide it,

Truth is I think I like it,

But in future,illusion,

Still I don't know which way to go.

Me and my heart we got issues,

Don't know if I should hate you or miss you,

Damn I wish that I could resist you,

Can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you,,

Me and my heart we got issues,

Don't know if I should hate you or miss you,

Damn,I wish that I could resist you,

Can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you,

Me and my heart we got issues,

Me and my heart we got issues,issues,

We got issues, issues, issues,

We got issues, issues, issues,
Me and my heart we got issues,

Don't know if I should hate you or miss you.

Me and my heart we got issues.

Transfer school?

2009-09-07T14:30:00.005+08:00

Today in school,PK HEM was looking for me in school.

She asked me to transfer to a school nearer to my house.

She said because I always reach school late,that's why.

And she can't accept it anymore.

Sheesh lah that teacher.

Hmm... My dad is still thinking about it.

Think. Think. Think. >.<

But I for sure have to transfer school.

I'll be transfering school next year.

But where? O.o

I have time to think after PMR.

This is so sad!

OMG! ;[

♥ LOVE QUOTES ♥

2009-09-06T15:43:00.013+08:00

FRUSTRATED because I can't tell if it's real.

MAD because I don't know how you feel.

UPSET because we can't make it right.

SAD because I need you.

ANGRY because you won't take my hand.

AGGRAVATED because you don't understand.

DISAPPOINTED because we can't be together.

But still,I'll love you forever.

If you love someone,you would be willing to give up everything for them,

but if the love you back,they would never ask you to.

Everyone says that LOVE HURTS,but that isn't true.

LONLINESS hurts. LOSING SOMEONE hurts. ENVY hurts.

Everyone gets these things CONFUSED with love,

but in reality,love is the only thing in the world thatcovers up all the PAIN and makes someone feel WONDERFUL again.

Love is the only thing in this world that doesn't hurt.

Not all guys are jerks.

Just because ONE is a jackass,

doesn't mean that he represents ALL of them.

Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend.

Why do we ALWAYS realize things when it's too late?

While I was holding on,all you did was let go.

Love never crossed my mind until the day I met you.

There is one pain I often feel which you will never know

because it's caused by the absence of you.

There are times when I can't decide whether to see you or not,

I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I don't want to see you

because every time I do,the fact that you don't see me the way that I see you,

hurts me even more.

Act like nothing's wrong,

when deep down inside all you want to do is cry.

Make him believe he's nothing to you.

Even though he mean everything to you.

And you'll see it's just a matter of time before he misses you too.

It hurts to see someone you love ignoring you,

it also hurts to see that he doesn't feel your love.

Why did you break my heart when all I ever did was love you?

Maybe it's not about forgiving or forgetting.

Maybe it's about remembering everything and being will to start over.

Even if it means you might get hurt.

But sometimes,it's worth the risk.

You say you love me then you leave.

I don't want to see you go,but there's one thing I think you should know...

I love you.

I know you don't believe you mean this much to me.

But I promise you that you do.

She says she doesn't care but the look in her eyes,

tells the completely different story.

I miss you when something really good happens,

because you're the one I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me,

because you're the one who understands me.

I miss you when I laugh or cry,

because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time.

But I miss you the most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life.

I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy,

I'm going to laugh so you don't see me cry.

I thought I love him,

but he had to break my heart to show what true love is.

You'll never understand why I hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying,

you're not the one who is left behind,

you're not the one who loved too much,

and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone.
I don't know where I stand with you and I don't know what I mean to you,

all I know is every time I think of you,all I wanna do is be with you.

It's always the same in every relationship,

there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together,

while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through.

I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

If you're going to make me cry,

atleast be there to wipe away the tears.

Nothing hurts more than realizing that he meant EVERYTHING to you,

but you meant NOTHING to him.

If you love me,let me know.If not,gently let me go.

Things happen for wrong reasons,things happen for the better.

When you said we'd still be friends,I thought we'd still be together.

Everything went downhill. Where did I go wrong?

I still think about you. And I listen to our only song.

I probably broke your heart and I think I broke mine too.

I don't know how to say this,but I think I still love you.

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had.

But,I can't because I know you won't come after me.

And I guess that's what hurts the most.

You hurt me more than I deserve,why are you so cruel?

I love you more than you deserve,why am I such a fool?

If you love something,let it go.

If it comes back,it's yours.

If it doesn't,it never really was in the first place.

It's hard to pretend to love someone when you don't,

but it's harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

I play the same song over and over again because it reminds me of you.

They ignore each other and look the other way,

but they both know that it wasn't suppose to end that way.

Dear Lord,

I pray for wisdom to understand him,

Love,to forgive him and

Patience,for his mood.

Because Lord,if I pray for strength,

I'll just beat him to death.

When you love someone,

you give all you can and expect nothing in return.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

True love doesn't have a happy ending,

because true love never ends.

When you love someone,you can tell.

But when you are in love,

everyone else can tell.

You don't love someone because they're beautiful,

but they're beatiful because you love them.

You know you really love someone when you can't hate them for breaking your heart.

It takes someone really special to make you smile with tears in your eyes.

We come to love not to find a perfect person,but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Someday your prince charming will come. Mine just took a wrong turn,got lost,and is too stubborn to ask for directions.

Meeting you was fate,becoming your friend was a choice,but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand.

So now I leave you without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.

You are what I never knew I wanted.

Don't you say you love me unless you really mean it,because I might do something crazy like believe it.

True love never leaves the heart. So,if you don't love me now,you didn't love me then.

No guy is worth fighting for. And if you have to fight to get him,then you're better off without him.

A cute guy can open up my eyes,a smart guy can open up my mind,but only a sweet guy can open up my heart.

I want to be happy because he's happy. But how can I be happy when I know I'm not the one who's making him smile?

You will know when you really love someone. When you want him to be happy even if his happiness means you are not part of it.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than trying to hurt yourself by putting it back together.

A simple phrase like,"Maybe we should just be friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

Do you love me because I am beautiful or I am beautiful because you love me?

Never apologize for saying what you feel because that's like saying,"Sorry for being real".

Sometimes I wish that you would pay more attention to my favourite songs because the lyrics they sing,are the words I'm too scared to say.
It's funny how,when someone says they love you,you can't really feel it,but when they say the don't love you,you can feel every ounce of what was drain out of your entire being.
No one ever gets tired of loving. But everyone gets tired of waiting,assuming,hearing promises,saying sorry and all the hurting.

My name ^^

2009-09-06T14:59:00.004+08:00

MAXINE

Cultural origin : Latin

Inherent meaning : Renowed & eminent

Spiritual connotation : Secure in truth

Supporting Scripture : Phillipians 3:15

"Let us therefore, as many as be perfect, be thus minded; and if in anything ye be otherwise minded, God shall reveal even this unto you."

I would like to thank Raphael for giving me this. =]

What is love?

2009-09-06T09:54:00.002+08:00

What is love?

Those who don't like it calls it responsibility.

Those who play with it calls it a game.

Those who don't have it calls it a dream.

Those who understand it calls it destiny.

And me,I call it YOU.

Hard to believe

2009-09-06T09:44:00.002+08:00

He said that he likes me.

But I wonder if he's being serious or not.

Because after what Leon did to me,I became so paranoid over these kind of things.

I don't fully blame him lah.

Shit happens. >.<

Like I said,just because we want it,doesn't mean that we can have it.

We don't get what we want,but we get what we need.

Keep that in mind.

When I asked him whether he was being serious when he said that he likes me.

And he said that he was serious.

Honestly,I'm confused.

It's just so hard to believe.

So now,I'll just wait and see what happens.

If he was fooling around or what-so-ever.

I'll TRY and be patient with him.

Hopefully he wasn't fooling around.

I shall pray. ^-^

AMEN

Confused. Complicated. ARGH! >.<

2009-09-05T14:33:00.004+08:00

I met this guy. He's been really nice to me.

He somehow made me gotten over Leon.
I donno how,but he did.
I donno what's my feelings right now.
Do I really actually like him?
Am I really over Leon?
This is so damn confusing.
Honestly,I'm afraid to fall in love again.
I'm afraid that the same thing might happen again.
And maybe "this guy" doesn't likes me back.
Well,I can't have everything I want.
Just because I want it,doesn't mean that I can have it.
So,I just have to be patient.
If he doesn't likes me back,I'm just gonna have to accept it.
And move on. And just be happy.

Pfft! Yeah,right! As if it's that easy. =.=
If he doesn't likes me back,of course I'm gonna feel hurt.
Because when I met him,I've gotten over Leon somehow.
So,of course lah if he doesn't likes me back,I'll be disappointed and hurt.
Because he made me gotten over Leon.
Sigh... This is so depressing. >.<
Darn this life! It's so hard to live my life.

Well,all I have to do is pray.
God's help is only a prayer away. ^-^
If things doesn't turns out the way I want it to,
well,maybe God has better plans for me.
I just have to give it all up to him.
You do not know how happy you will be if you let the Lord take control of you.

That's all. =]

Zee Avi - Bitter Heart [Lyrics]

2009-09-04T16:51:00.003+08:00

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,

Children spinning around till they fall down down down.

I wait for you: it's been two hours now,

You're still somewhere in town,Your dinners getting cold.

I rest my case you are always this late,

And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,

Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,

Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,

Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,

So tell me whats her name.

Doo doo da dum,doo doo da dum,

doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum,

da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,

Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,

Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,

Bitter heart, bitter heart

of mine,of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

I thought we were meant to be ;[

2009-09-03T15:55:00.005+08:00

You pushed me away like you don't even know me.

I really loved you with all my heart.

Really. Truly. Sincerely.

I guess you forgot all the times that we shared.

You were always number 1 in my heart.

But now I can't believe that our love is torn apart.

I need you. I miss you. I want you. I love you.

You were my everything.

Without you,everything seems strange.

I guess everything you said was a lie.

I think about it,it brings tears to my eyes.

Now I'm not even a thought in your mind.

I just wish everything could have turned out differently.

I had a special feeling about you.

I thought maybe you did too.

No matter what,you'll always be in my heart.

I remember all the times I had with you.

Reach in your heart. I know I'm still there.

I don't wanna hear that you no longer care.

I never think that you would ever do this to me.

I thought you would always be there for me.

But now I'm nothing to you.

I thought we were meant to be.

DOUBTS

You know who you are ;[

2009-09-03T15:12:00.002+08:00

One day,when I told him that I liked him,he told me that he feel the same.

When he kisses me,it made me feel so SPECIAL.

I felt like I was going to melt.

I love it when he put his arms around me.

I love it when he kisses me.

I love it when he held my hand.

I love it when he wiped my tears away.

Everytime we met,you would always say that you love me.

I loved you too.

But all of it was LIES. Wasn't it?

He suddenly decided that he didn't want me.

It makes you think whether he meant any of it at all.

Was all that just a game?

Why did he do this?

He said that he NEVER loved me.

Then one day I felt like I had gotten over you.

Until I saw you again,and EVERYTHING came flooding back.

I still love you and I NEVER stop.

And each night I cry myself to sleep.

Wishing you would come back to me.

But I know you don't want me and that hurts the most.

Knowing you'll never want me for me.

I'm NOT perfect.

I know you won't ever love me.

But deep down,I am going to love you FOREVER.

I LOVE YOU [Sad story]

2009-09-02T16:15:00.004+08:00

Boy : Baby,we need to talk.

Girl : What do you mean?

Boy : Well,something has come up.

Girl : What's going on? Is it bad?

Boy : I'm leaving.

Girl : Baby,please don't. I really love you. Please don't leave me. I don't understand.

Boy : I'm moving away. My mother is sending me to boarding school far far away.

Girl : Baby,I don't want you to go.

Boy : Baby,I need to see you tonight. I'm leaving at 1 a.m. Can I meet you now?

Girl : Okay. I will sneak out and meet you in the park.

[They meet at a near by park and hug each other . The boy gives the girl a note.]

Girl : *Begins to cry* I love you.
Boy : Baby please don't cry. I have to go.

[Girl reads the letter at home]
"You probably already know that I am leaving . I knew this would be better if I wrote a note. Telling the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is I never loved you. I hate you so much. You are my bitch and don't you ever forget that. I never cared about you. I never wanted to talk to you and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you! Now that I'm leaving,I thought that you should know that I hate you. You never did the right thing and you were never there. I didn't think I could hate someone like you. I never want to see you for the rest of my life. I will never miss kissing you or cuddling you! I will never see you and that's a promise."

[She finds another piece of paper in her back pocket]

"Baby,I hope you find this letter first.

hate = love
never = always
bitch = baby
will not = will

I thought that your dad would be mad. So I switched the words."

[Girl smiles. Switches on TV.]

[PLANE CRASH]

She turns off the TV and goes to the bathroom. She kills herself cause she has nothing to live for. He was everything to her!

The next day,the phone rang. It was him leaving a message saying that he's still alive and not to worry.

"I missed my flight cause I had to see you one last time. Hope you're not worried. I'm here to stay for good. I LOVE YOU."

Class.School.Rich. xD

2009-09-02T14:56:00.003+08:00

I donno why,but today me and Hazelin so rajin go and clean the WHOLE CLASSROOM by ourselves.

Something wrong with us today. The floor was so damn dusty,so we swept the whole floor clean.

Then we arranged all the tables and chairs neatly and tidyly.

This is so NOT like us. Haha! xD

We even thought of mopping the floor,but we couldn't because we had Ceramah Sejarah.

Heh. If we had the time,I'm sure we would have done it.

We even wrapped all 3 boxes by ourselves for the recycling thingy.

It's always Hazelin and me doing things for the class.

The rest of them are all LAZY ASSES. =.=

Then,the school bought new fans and new lights for every classes.

Each class has 7 fans and 6 lights.

So many arh! The class so damn BRIGHT now. Hurts my eyes. >.<

The school so damn rich arh. Might as well buy LAPTOP or NOTEBOOK for each of us lah.

Haiya! Why go and buy those stupid fans and lights? =.=

Well,that's all I have to say. =]

Band AGM Dinner

2009-09-01T15:36:00.007+08:00

This year,my school's band held it's first AGM dinner.

It was held at Sarawak Club on 30th August 2009.

The dinner started at 7.00 p.m.

We ate A LOT of food.

Ruth and I did a performance together.

She was playing the guitar and I was also playing the guitar and singing.

We did great in our performance.

Though we were nervous,we did great.

We took some vain pictures.

Me and Dae

Me and Doro

Me and Ruth

It was so cold in the dinning room.

I was half way practicing then suddenly Ruth wanted to take my picture.

So,what the heck. ^^

This is me. =]

I love this picture. ^^

I have nothing much to say,so I guess that's all.

2 Months ;[

2009-09-01T15:17:00.002+08:00

It has been 2 months since he broke up with me.

And yet I still can't seem to forget about him nor get over him.

I donno why. It's not easy to get over him.

I want to get over him but I don't want to forget him.

He still doesn't wanna talk to me. Why?

I don't know. Only he has the answers.

I wish I knew the reason why.

All I want is for me and him to be friends.

If he doesn't have any feelings towards me,it's ok.

Being friends is more than enough.

If only he knew how much he mean to me.

It NEVER took me this long trying to get over a guy.

Well,I guess that's just how my life goes.

The Seminar

2009-08-27T10:52:00.002+08:00

Finally the boring Sri Sarjana is over.

Thought it was kindda helpful.

I wasn't really paying attention even though I paid RM 100 for it.

Well,you can't blame me for not fully paying attention.

Mr. Lee was ok,but the lady was totally LAME!

Gosh! You should have seen the lady.

She rasa funny one.

The whole time I wish that someone would go up to her and choke her.

No lah. I'm not that mean. xD

Oh well. I will be uploading the pictures soon.

Happy Birthday Jaclyn!

2009-08-26T10:36:00.004+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday Jaclyn! ^^

Jaclyn here is my cousin.

RETRO and VINTAGE is her inspiration.

She's IMAGINATIVE,CLUMSY,BUBBLY and FRIENDLY!

She's a MATH GEEK.

She's a certified BOOKWORM.

She's also a very CHLDISH type of person.

Love you,cuzzie!

*hugs*

Not MY Holiday

2009-08-25T11:26:00.003+08:00

This whole week of holiday isn't gonna be like a holiday for me.

My schedule for this week is so DAMN PACKED!

I've got PMR Seminar from Monday to Wednesday,

On Thursday I have to be at CEWC for setting up for KAYD,

Friday to Sunday I've got KAYD,

and on Sunday night I've got performance for my school's band dinner.

So TIRING! >.<

Actually,EVERYDAY I have to go to CEWC for setup.

But in the morning,I'm VERY TIRED.

So,Monday to Wednesday,I go for the setups at night. ^^

Heh.

Well,that's all.

I'll be posting about the seminar soon,I hope. xD

Quarantine

2009-08-20T14:49:00.003+08:00

I haven't got anything much to write about for the past few days.

I've been QUARANTINED at home since Tuesday,18th August 2009.

Today is actually the last day I'll be quarantine.

But the doctor said that if I'm not fully recovered yet,I still can't go to school.

I miss all of my friends. ;[

This week is PMR Trial week.

And I can't sit for the exam.

I only sat for Sejarah,BM,Geo and English paper 1.

I heard from a lot of people that the exam is so damn hard.

Especially SCIENCE.

Well,I'm kindda happy that I don't have to sit for the exam.

But a lot of people said that it's very important.

Oh well.

Then I have to do my very best for PMR.

It's so BORING being quarantined at home.

There's nothing much to do.

All you can do is sleep,eat,watch tv,go online,shower and all those boring stuffs.

I wanna go out and PLAY and EXERCISE.

I feel so sick being quarantine in this boring house.

Can't wait to get out of the house soon. ^^

I miss the outdoors.

I still love you

2009-08-19T16:09:00.005+08:00

Honestly,I still love you and I'm still waiting for you.

Sometimes I wonder if waiting for you is worth it.

I still love you and it's hard to let you go.

You breaking up with me was the most painful thing I had to go through.

I wanna forget about you,but I don't want to.

The times we spent together,I will never forget.

You said that you were serious.

You said that you really love me so much.

You said that you NEVER want to let me go.

When you wanted to broke up with me,

I asked you why,

and you said because you never loved me from the very start.

When you said that you were serious that you wanted to be with me,

that you love me so much, and that you never want to let me go,

did you really mean it?

Or was it all a LIE?!

You did not only say those things,

but you pormised and meant it!

Was it really fun seeing me getting hurt like that?

Was it fun playing and fooling around with me?

Was it fun hurting me?

Was if fun lying to me?

I know you have hurted me so much,

but I don't know why I still love you.

Everyone keeps on telling me to forget about you and move on.

I don't think I can ever stop loving you no matter how much it hurts.

You've been IGNORING me ever since I agreed to be your friend.

Why is that? Have I done something wrong?

Why are you being so cruel to me?

I've done a lot of things for you and this is how you show your appreciation?!

I even walked in the heavy rain just to meet you because I love you.

How could you be so HEARTLESS at times?

All I ask is for you to accept the love I give you.

Just please don't throw it back at me.

If you don't want to love me back,it's ok.

As long as you accept my love and not throw it back at me,I'm happy.

Please talk to me once again.

If a girl cries...

2009-08-19T14:33:00.002+08:00

If a girl cries in front of you,

means she couldn't take it anymore.

If you take her hand,

she would stay with you for the rest of your life;

if you let her go,

she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.

A girl won't cry easily,

except in front of the person she love the most,

she becomes weak.

A girl won't cry easily,

only when she loves you the most,

she put down her ego.

Guys,if a girl cries in front of you,

please hold her hands firmly,

she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,if a girl cries because of you,

maybe because of your decision,

you ruin her life.

When she cries right in front of you,

when she cries because of you,

look into her eyes.

Can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?

Think...

Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,

in front of you and because of you?

She cries not because she's weak,

She cries not because she wans sympathy or pity,

She cries because crying silently is no longer possible.

The pain,hurt and agony have become too big a burden to be kept aside.

Guys,think about it...

If a girl cries her heart out to you,

and all because of you,

it's time to look back on what you have done.

Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it. Because one day...

It may be too late for regrets,

It may be too late to say,"I'm sorry".

To my friends,

ponder this message seriously.

Don't do this to a girl.

You may regret for the rest of your life.

Maybe in your life,

she's the only one that love you the most.

Happy Birthday Dorothy! =D

2009-08-17T14:07:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO DOROTHY LING!

Though you're a year older,

but you will always be young at heart.

Love you lots,sis!

God bless you always.

*hugs*

♥

RAIN! ^^

2009-08-14T17:23:00.003+08:00

It has been raining these past few days.

Woohoo!~

LOL xD

Finally it's not as hot as hell before.

Heh.

Well...

Yeah.

And again,nothing interesting to write about. =.=

No inspiration or stuffs.

NOTHING O.O

2009-08-12T15:21:00.002+08:00

I have nothing to blog about today.

It's a HOT day today. >.<

That's all.

Unexpected 0.0

2009-08-11T15:59:00.004+08:00

Today,a good guy friend of mine told me something which I never thought he would say.

He said that he loves me. 0.0

It all started with me sending this SMS,"---Finish the sentence--- 'I always wanted to tell you that..................'"

Then,he replied.

He said,"I always wanted to say that I love you... Is it?"

At first I though that he thought that I asked him to complete what I wanted to say.

And so,I told him that he's suppose to tell me what he always wanted to tell me,not to complete my sentence or so.

Then he said,"I really did wanted to say that I love you."

I asked him,"Love as in friends,bestfriends or like as a sis,right?"

Then he said,"No. More than that."

Then I asked,"You mean love as in like those type of couple love?"

Then he said,"Yea."

I was like... O.O?!

I didn't reply him after that.

I had nothing to say and I didn't know what to say.

I was in SHOCK!

Then he sent me this SMS :

"I prayed so many times that you will ask me that question. And it worked. I like you. Not just like...but I love you. More than anything I ever wanted. Until you have someone with,it makes me really sad. But I'm glad that I told you how I really feel about you. I love you so much more than friends,bestfriends and more than a sister."

And again,I was like...O.O?!

I don't know what to say.

I mean,sorry to say lah,well,yeah...it's too late for him.

Why do people ALWAYS realize things when it's too late?

Heh.

Well,if you [the guy],is reading this,I just wanna say that I'm sorry things aren't the way you want it to be.

You will find 'the one' one day.

Don't worry. ^^

Take care.

God bless you.

*hugs* =]

Results!

2009-08-11T15:28:00.005+08:00

Damn!

Today I got a few test papers back.

Guess what?

I passed my Sejarah test paper!

But...

I failed my Geografi test paper.

WTF?!

It's as if like I have to fail atleast one subject during every exam.

=.=

I've been failing my Sejarah test papers since last year.

These are my marks for now :

English - 83%

Science - 74%

BM - 52%

Maths - 52%

KHB -51%

Sejarah - 41%

Geografi - 40%

Who loves you?

2009-08-10T16:01:00.005+08:00

Sometimes,we tend to think that no one loves us.

Sometimes we feel/think that NO ONE LOVES US AT ALL.

Sometimes we even asks ourselves"Who loves me?".

Sometimes we even say,"Nobody loves me."

Let me tell you ONE thing,all that is NOT true!

God loves you.

You said NO ONE loves you.

When you say NO ONE loves you,it's as if like you're saying that GOD is NO ONE.

God loves you.

Jesus loves you.

Your family loves you.

Your friends loves you.

And I know deep down inside your heart [somewhere],you love yourself too.

Before you become all EMO and thinking that you don't deserve to live in this world anymore or that no one loves you,remember this...

GOD will ALWAYS love you no matter what. His love for you is

NEVER ENDING LOVE.

When you tend to think that no one loves you,you're actually hurting God's feelings.

When you tend to think that you don't deserve to live in this world anymore,you're also hurting God's feelings.

Before you do anything stupid which unplease God,think about his love,remember all the wonderful things he has done for you and all.

And most importantly,remember this...

HE LOVES YOU. =]

Break time! xD

2009-08-10T15:29:00.002+08:00

Today at school during recess time,my friend bought Vanilla Coke. Then when she was about to open it,I quickly gave it a good shake. Then when she opened it,it was bubbling and overflowing. So,some of the coke spilled on the canteen floor. Then when that happened,there was a teacher behind us that saw what happened. The teacher then asked me to take the mop and mop the canteen floor. Every one at the canteen was looking at me. [Haha! xD] The teacher said something about giving me demerits just for that. =.= Sheesh... So lame lah that teacher. When teacher was lecturing us about that,all we did was laugh and smile. LOL xD

Trio ^^

2009-08-07T16:44:00.003+08:00

I love this picture.

It looks so cool.

Haha!

I'm not gonna write any story or anything.

Just wanna say that I love this picture and that it's so cool.

LOL xD

Haha!

6th August 2009

2009-08-07T15:52:00.003+08:00

6th August 2009

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

It's a day to remember.

It's MY day.

It's a LOVEly day.

It happened at 10 p.m.

This is when it all began.

This is where the story begins.

Once upon a time...

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

123456789

2009-08-07T15:33:00.005+08:00

Today is 7th August 2009.

At 12hours 34 minutes and 56 seconds today,

7th August[8] 2009,

the time and date will be 12:34:56,7/8/09 that is...

123456789

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Just now before we went home,teacher made an anouncement. She told us about the "123456789" thing. She asked us to cherish the moment. After school,my cousin sent me home,but before he sent me home,he had to go to SEGI college to pay his fees. So,when I was there,I looked at the time,and it was already 12:34:56 p.m. So,I had no idea on how to cherish the moment,so I did something so very silly,I was twhrilling around inside SEGI college. People were staring at me. But I didn't give a damn. Haha! Then my cousins and my brother thought that was something wrong with me. Haha! So,yeah... That's was how I "cherished" the moment. LOL xD

SRAY-ed

2009-08-07T15:26:00.002+08:00

Just now during History exam,

there were a few students sleeping. [Zzz...]

So,one of the teachers took a spraying bottle,

went to the students place and SPRAY(!) their faces with water.

Haha! xD

It was so damn hilarious.

Well,that's all.

Dedicated to HIM ;[

2009-08-05T16:18:00.009+08:00

Utada Hikaru - First Love

Once in a while

You are in my mind

I think about the days that we had

And i dream that these would all come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time

Nothing goes on in my heart

Just like your memories

How I want here to be with you

Once more

You will always gonna be the one

And you should know

How I wish I could have never let you go

Come into my life again

Oh, don't say no

You will always gonna be the one in my life

So true, I believe can never find

Somebody like you

My first love

Once in awhile

Your are in my dreams

I can feel the your warm embrace

And I pray that it will all come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time

Nothing goes on in my heart

Just like your memories

And how I want here to be with you

Once more

You will always be inside my heart

And you should know

How I wish I could have never let you go

Come into my life again

Please don't say no

Now and forever you are still the one

In my heart

So true,I believe I could never find

Somebody like you

My first love

You will always gonna be the one

And you should know

How I wish I could have never let you go

Come into my life again

Oh, don't say no

You will always gonna be the one

So true, I believe I could never find

Now and forever

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This song is dedicated to someone. I'm sure some of you may know who it is. He may not be my first love,but he is the first guy whom I ever loved so much. This song kindda suits me. Hmm... Deep down inside,I still really do love him. But I guess he'll never know. Even if he knows,I don't think he'll even understand.

T.R.U.T.H.

2009-08-05T14:20:00.004+08:00

I know it has already been a month,but I still can't seem to get over you. No matter how hard I try,it's just impossible. I even tried filling my head with bad thoughts about you. [sorry] But yet,I still can't seem to forget about you. Why is it so hard?! Gosh... PMR trials is just in a couple of weeks and I'm still thinking about this. Sigh... You were the GREATEST thing that ever happened to me. Why did you have to break my heart like that? What did I do but give love to you?

The first time I asked you why are you breaking up with me,you told me the reason why. Then,few days later,I asked you again what's the reason that you broke up with me,and then you answered me,you told me a different reason this time. The next week or so,I asked you again why you broke up with me,and you told me a different reason again. Then,few days later,I asked you again to see which is it,but this time,your reason was far more different and it really hurt me a lot. The last reason that you gave me,it hurt me so much. That was the most HURTFUL reason ever. The last reason that you gave me was,you said that you NEVER loved me. [WTF?!] You said that you never have feelings towards me from the very beginning. If that was so,then why did you even wanted to be with me in the first place? Is it because you felt sorry for me? But you said that you were serious. You confuse me! Damn it!

After that day,I couldn't stop thinking about it. Part of me thinks that maybe you said that because you wanted me to stop waiting for you,while the other part of me thinks that you really mean it. Hmm... But deep down inside,I believe that you're not telling me the ACTUAL reason why you broke up with me. Until today,I still wanna know the real reason why you broke up with me.

I think the reason why I can't seem to really move on is because you have not/did not tell me the real reason why you broke up with me. And it's bothering me. Maybe,just maybe,if you tell me the real reason why you broke up with me,maybe I can move on.

All I ask is for the TRUTH. It has been 1 month and 4 days that we broke up. I donno why I'm even counting the days. ;[

After that day,you asked if we could be friends,at first I wasn't ok with it. Then few days later when I text you to tell you that it was ok with me for us just to be friends,you suddenly stopped talking to me. You've been ignoring me since 15th of July 2009,Tuesday. Why?!

Sigh... Why are you treating me like this? All I ask is for the truth. God bless you. Bye.

17.06.2009 - 01.07.2009

-M A X I N E-

Demerit business

2009-07-31T15:26:00.004+08:00

Waa...

Today in school,teacher was asking those students who have been collecting demerit marks to sign the forms.

And I was one of them. [Haha!]

So,I went and sign the form lah.

While signing,I was look at my list of demerits.

Then when I reached the bottom of the list,it says,...

"5 demerit - Tidak menghormati guru".

I was like...

WTF?! O.O

Haha!

I was so shocked arh!

I didn't remember getting demerited for "tidak menghormati guru".

Then my friends reminded me of how I got demerited for it.

Then I just laughed.

Haha!

Poor teacher.

Who ask her?!

Talk so much and complain wayyyy too much.

Crazy arh that teacher.

Sikit-sikit marah. =.=

Heh.

Biar lah that teacher!

Like I care.

LOL xD

-M A X I N E-

To : My uncle =]

2009-07-28T15:43:00.007+08:00

I would like to take this chance to wish my uncle a very happy...

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y !

LOL xD

His name is Eusebius Ong,by the way.

You can add him in Facebook if you want to.

Haha!

He's currently working at Genting Highlands.

Too bad he can't celebrate his birthday with his family,us.

Huhu ;[

Hmm...

I donno what else to say.

I guess that's all.

Haha!

God bless you,uncle! ^^

-M A X I N E-

Today-ness

2009-07-27T14:26:00.004+08:00

Sigh...

I can't seem to log in to Facebook today.

It's either there's something wrong with Facebook,my computer or the internet connection.

So menyusahkan one.

So bored lah cannot use Facebook.

Friendster has nothing much. =.=

Oh,well.

Just suffer from boredom today.

Huhu ;[

The weather is so damn hot! xS

-M A X I N E-

PMR =S

2009-07-23T16:28:00.007+08:00

This year's PMR will be on 12th - 16th October 2009. Stress arh! Have to study,study,study! =.=' Have to revise ALL Form 1,Form 2 and Form 3 subjects and every chapters of it. =.= I've been failing my History exam since last year. What makes you think I'm gonna pass it? Oh wait! My kerja kursus will help me. Haha! Forgot about that. Heh. Well,if I can't get straight A's,I hope that atleast I'll pass. Hmm... So stressing lah. I didn't really pay that much attention in Form 1 -Form 3.

HELP ME! =S

How am I gonna finish revising/studying EVERYTHING?! I suck at Maths and History and...haiya! I suck at almost everything. Damn it! =.=

So stressful lah having exams. Especially public exams. =.= Have to study till your brain almost explode! Gahh!!! After PMR is SPM. Sigh... More to come. Gosh! Wish I was a genuis.

Oh well... Guess have to study really hard. Hmm... ;[ Wish me all the best. ^^

-M A X I N E-

About my status in Facebook =.=

2009-07-23T15:14:00.004+08:00

My status was : "Ngee... ^^ Sultans are in Kuching right now. Some of them are living at Four Points hotel. I can just walk there and look for them. LOL xD"

These are the comments. So funny de. For me lah. I'm not sure about you. Some comments has no connection to my status. Oh well. Haha!

The Comments
Tommy Soon : they come here for?

Maxine Rose : to meet me. =P

Tommy Soon : wah......tua liap lang xD

Maxine Rose : huh? O.o

Tommy Soon : i was saying VIP lol

Maxine Rose : chech. haha! LOL xD

Tommy Soon : new pic lol

Maxine Rose : haha! go see and comment lah. ^^ hehe

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : they come here kam lan only....traffic jam all the way plus heavy rain again ==''

Tommy Soon : they go 4point kam hookers lan lo xDD

Maxine Rose : yeah. haha! police everywhere. heh. go tell them lah. haha! LOL xD

Maxine Rose : haha! no hookers there de. =.=

Tommy Soon : how do u know? did u asked? xD

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : lol.....everywhere police go back and forth like nothing to do...people got exam oso bising bising punya silent

Maxine Rose : haha! no. later lah i ask them. LOL xD

Tommy Soon : *siren* lol they go round round looking for 4point xD

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : oops my bad....keep asking people to SILENT until get used to it d. XD 4point got hookers? y i never knw? how u knw? u go be4? XD

Maxine Rose : to tommy : no. they go round looking for me. ^^ // to albert : haha! haiya! Four Points no hookers lah. it's a hotel. if got,i would have known a long time ago. xD

Tommy Soon : i know because i went to see before. all KN. shit xD

Maxine Rose : =.= you see,tommy! you simply say at Four Points got hookers until people believe. =.='

Tommy Soon : hahahahahahaha

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : XD she just said no hooker and if got she will be well known there meaning she is a hooker.zzz. and i knw 4point is a hotel ma. mana tahu. u guys say got hooker in there.zzz. maxine i go find u :)

Maxine Rose : laugh some more! =.= if whoever that works at Four Points hotel find out that you simply say that,that hotel got hookers,die liaw you. haha! xD

Tommy Soon : LOL. i never knew u were working there xD

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : frm sultan topic to hooker topic =='' i m out of here!

Maxine Rose : to albert : why go find me? O.o // to tommy : i didn't said that...sigh... i give up. =.=

Maxine Rose : to albert : tommy leh. go and start the hooker topic. =.=

Tommy Soon : lai lo. he start say kam lam 1st xD

Maxine Rose : =.= but you started the whole hooker topic.

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : to maxine: u said u hooker so i go find u la XD // to tommy : u talking bout me? i said the SULTAN kam lan come here for wat Zzz

Maxine Rose : to albert : i NEVER said that i was a hooker. =.= // to tommy : i'm so gonna write a post about you in my blog. =P

Tommy Soon : sure sure. i go sleep 1st :D // to albert: lol

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : u said, " if 4point got hooker, i would have known a long time ago...em...wait...sorry..my bad...i thought u said if got hooker u would have been known(famous) there :P sorry hahahahaha misintepreted zzz

Maxine Rose : to tommy : good lah if you go sleep. haha! =P // to albert : sheesh... haha! that's why i was so blurr when you first said you wanna find me. haha!

Albert Wong Yiung Kiing : kekeke my bad...i chao 1st..sorry yeah XD

Maxine Rose : it's ok. chow!~ =]

P/S : The hooker topic started all because of Tommy. Crazy guy. Gee... Thanks a lot Tommy. =.= Haha! Oh well... Thanks to him,the conversation became more interesting. LOL xD

THE END

-M A X I N E-

Rainforest World Music Festival 2009

2009-07-21T14:30:00.017+08:00

As you all know [I think you do],Rainforest World Music Festival 2009 was held on 10th - 12th July 2009 at Sarawak Cultural Village. I went there on Saturday night,11th July 2009. I went there with my family but I ditched them and went with my friends. [Haha! So mean.] All my family did was sit at the eating place and drank beer the whole night. On the other hand,I was having fun with my friends. ^^

This is me in the car on the way to Sarawak Cultural Village. ^^

This is Adricia and me. We were up on the hill on the left side of the stage near the projector.

The place was so damn crowded with people,man! Look at that picture. I mean...WOAH! Didn't expect that there was gonna be that many people. Some people were wearing masks to prevent themselves from getting the H1N1 virus. Haha! No fun lah if you use masks during a concert like that. Well,I for sure did not use the mask. =P

I was sitting under the tree. Can you see the tree? I guess not. Well,maybe. Hmm... Don't know,don't care. Haha!

I was so sweaty! Most of us were sweating like pigs. It wasn't hot,but we were enjoying ourselves so much that we danced like crazy until we sweat like that. I sweated so much till I look like I just came out from the shower. Haha! xD I made a new friend. I don't where is she from,but I think she's from Jamaica...Heh. I have no idea. I danced with her. It was really fun dancing with her. Then,suddenly she laughed so loud and hard. Then I looked at her. Then she said,"Poor you. Your shoes are all muddy." Then she pointed at my shoes and kept on laughing. =.= So,I took off my shoes and put it at where our stuffs were. Why didn't I think of taking my shoes off earlier? Sigh... Oh well.

Here's a picture of my muddy shoes. And you can see a couple of can beers and someone's feet. Haha! xD

Oh! I forgot to mention. We,my friends and I,drank Heineken beer. We shared the beers. I'm not sure who bought the beers,but it was either Leon or Brandon. Haha! Thanks,you guys. ^^

Me trying to take picture with the huge Heineken bottle but my dad ruined the picture by "showing off" his lame heineken beer can. Haha! So,I asked my mum to help take picture of me and the huge Heineken bottle. And...

...Ta-da! Hehe. I love this picture. ^^ Huge,isn't it? =D

Me,Leon,JJ,Adriana and Brandon danced like crazy and enjoyed ourselves that night but Adricia and her boyfriend,Samson,were busy dating! =P Here's a picture of us having fun! ^^

We had so much fun! We were drunk,but who cares?! Haha! It's a night to enjoy yourselves like hell! Haha! Woot!~

We all were barefooted and the ground was so muddy and so,our feet were muddy too. But,like I said...WHO CARES?! Haha!

It was so dark at where I was. But the stage was fully lighted.

I walked around barefooted. Haha! Who cares if I'm barefooted? No one seemed to care/mind/bother. Most of the people there were barefooted as well. But I've got a few cuts on my feet because of the rocks and stones and all. =.=

It was almost 12a.m.,so we had to go home. While walking,I snapped a photo of myself walking from above. Wanna see? Haha! Here's the photo...

It was the most exciting and fun night this year! I can't to go for it again next year. Hehe. Oh ya! And I bought the T-shirt. ^^

The end. =]

-M A X I N E-

Friends

2009-07-17T16:58:00.004+08:00

I stole this from my friend,Tommy. =] Oh ya! Hey,Tommy! Thanks for letting me copy it. Haha! I modified it a little. ^^

Friends. Everyone have them. And there are alot of types of friends.

There are :
Best Friends
Best friends are people that are close to you,a person you can rely on when you're in trouble or just someone you can talk about anything to including secrets. They are just great peoples in life which everyone of you should appreciate. I currently have 4 only. They are Ruth,Kelvin,Alex,Hazelin and Raphael.

Friends
Friends are people just to keep you company or someone u just met or to hang out with.

The "I need help" Friend
These people are your friends just for your experties/skills/help.

The Boyfriend/Girlfriend
These people are your so called "lovers" or crushes that accepted your proposal in relationship. In high school,[I'm brave to say],it will not last until marriage most of the time and everyone seems to be suicidal from just a high school relationship which in my opinion is very childish and repulsive. I'm currently single. ^^

The Bully [people who picks on you or hates you]
These peoples are fucking retards which is very childish because they think they are the "king" of the world [school]. They are not strong at all. They just are strong because have their "gang" or "wussy group" to harras/abuse other people.

You
Yes YOU. To find alot of Best friends/Friends. You yourself must not be The "I need help" friend or The bully to find those great peoples. If you're the "I need help" friend or the Bully,you will only get friends of the same type which is not good for your life and you will regret it sooner or later. To the best friends and friends I have : Have a great and wonderful life. I will always pray for you =]

-M A X I N E-

Phones! =D

2009-07-16T15:22:00.008+08:00

These are the phones I'm gonna get depends on how many A's I get for PMR.

If I get 1 - 3 A's, I'm gonna get :

Sony Ericsson Aino

If I get 4 - 5 A's, I'm gonna get :
Sony Ericsson Satio

If I get straight A's [7 A's], I'm gonna get :

Sony Ericsson XPERIA X1

Oh well,hopefully I'll get straight A's. Ngeehee... xD Gotta study hard. Wish me all the best! ^^

-M A X I N E-

R.I.P. Michael Jackson ;[

2009-07-16T14:05:00.021+08:00

Michael Jackson

1958 - 2009

Our dearly beloved Michael Jackson,King Of Pop died on 25th June 2009,Thursday.

Though he is gone,but he will always be in our hearts. ;]

His music moves us. ^^

He is a great guy.

He was a very talented young kid. =D

His dance and movements are amazing! Especially the MOONWALK! xD

Michael,where ever you are,we will always remember you and your great music. You will always be in our hearts. You were a great father to your children. You're an amazing idol! Your music,your dance movements and your signture move,the moonwalk,are all so breath taking! It's so sad that you had to go so soon. We love you always. May you rest in peace,Michael. Amen! ;]

-M A X I N E-

Students now a days

2009-07-16T13:48:00.006+08:00

Yesterday,15th July 2009,my bestfriend brought her phone to school. Her handphone is Sony Ericsson W200i [the phone is shown above]. Then one of her friend was playing with her phone. Her friend was looking at her music file. And then she accidently pressed 'PLAY'. Then they song was playing in maximum volume. Teacher couldn't hear it because she was crapping a lot and really loud in front of the class. Then my friend panicked and passed the phone to my bestfriend. So,my bestfriend quickly stopped the music. The next thing she knew,the whole class was looking at her but the teacher didn't even realized that something "illegal" had happened. Haha! Thanks goodness teacher was talking that time. And also,thank goodness that teacher is deaf! Haha! No lah. Just kidding. LOL xD Then the prefects in class was staring at her. But they didn't confisticate her phone lah. Lucky her. Oh well,that's all! =D

-M A X I N E-

D E P R E S S I O N

2009-07-15T15:49:00.004+08:00

Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real.

Mad because I don't know how you feel.

Upset because we can't make it right.

Sad because I need and want you.

Angry because you won't listen.

Aggravated because you don't understand.

Disappointed because we can't be together.

But still,I'll love you forever.

-M A X I N E-

You're the reason I try ;[

2009-07-15T15:09:00.006+08:00

You will never know

The way you make me laugh,

The way you make me smile.

The way you don't even try.

It's tearing me apart,

breaking my heart,

as i continue to lie.

You're everything to me,

without you I could not live.

You're my other half,

and you don't even know.

You're all I want,

all I need to have.

I keep it to myself,

not letting you know.

It's ripping me deep inside,

and you don't even know it.

I'm in love with you,

you're the only reason I cried.

Friends won't work,

not any longer,

moving on with life,

won't do well either.

You don't even know,

how I feel about you,

does that make me a deceiver?

Chills run down my spine,

every time you cross my mind.

Goosebumps come over me,

you're all that makes me happy.

In the mirror,

I see,the tear drop from my eye,

You don't even know,

YOU are the reason I try...

-M A X I N E-

A new beginning =]

2009-07-15T14:51:00.006+08:00

Heys! =] This is my new blog. I deleted the old one because it's out of date and i barely update it. I made a new one to start a new beginning. Hopefully this blog would be better than the old one. Heh. Hope to write something interesting soon. ^^

-M A X I N E-